By the time you see this, I’m probably on a plane right now leaving to fulfill my dreams. For some, you may look at this as very small and petty. But for me, it’s a big step and a huge leap for me. The last two weeks (after I posted this entry) had been an extreme roller coaster ride for me. Preparing for my big day are all physically, emotionally and mentally straining and exhausting me. There are nights when I’m picturing myself not making it. I must admit, I will be in terrible heartbreak if I don’t get in. Cos if I don’t make it, all the expenses incurred will all go down the drain. And for my family, finances are kind of tight right now and I don’t want to add to the burden. Second, if I don’t make it, I still have to look for another job or company to apply to which is very exhilarating after being rejected for n times. Third, if I don’t make it, I will be saddened and my belief in my dream might fade. And I don’t want that to happen.
That’s why I’ve been helping myself to think of more positive outcomes. Positive thoughts attracts positive vibes right? And I’m really thankful I stumbled upon kushandwisdom's profile. Of course, somehow it helped me ease the anxieties and the doubts I have lingering in my head. With these words in mind, I only have to hope for the best. In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take. So, this is one big chance. One big leap to achieve what I really want in my life.
Praying makes things better. And I have been talking to Him for some guidance. I’m pretty sure He has already heard my prayer. I’m entrusting everything to Him to make things work out, not in my time but in His time. I realized that if things go from light to dark, I must never lose hope. I must believe in His reasons and in His plans. Because He is all knowing and I must have faith in Him.
Thank you for all my readers here. You have been with me all this time. And I hope this time that I need you all the most, I really wish you could stay by my side til the end. I don’t need luck. I need your prayers and positive thoughts. Thank you. It’s not too late to dream, so dream big.