By the time you see this, I’m probably on a plane right now leaving to fulfill my dreams. For some, you may look at this as very small and petty. But for me, it’s a big step and a huge leap for me. The last two weeks (after I posted this entry) had been an extreme roller coaster ride for me. Preparing for my big day are all physically, emotionally and mentally straining and exhausting me. There are nights when I’m picturing myself not making it. I must admit, I will be in terrible heartbreak if I don’t get in. Cos if I don’t make it, all the expenses incurred will all go down the drain. And for my family, finances are kind of tight right now and I don’t want to add to the burden. Second, if I don’t make it, I still have to look for another job or company to apply to which is very exhilarating after being rejected for n times. Third, if I don’t make it, I will be saddened and my belief in my dream might fade. And I don’t want that to happen.

That’s why I’ve been helping myself to think of more positive outcomes. Positive thoughts attracts positive vibes right? And I’m really thankful I stumbled upon kushandwisdom's profile. Of course, somehow it helped me ease the anxieties and the doubts I have lingering in my head. With these words in mind, I only have to hope for the best. In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take. So, this is one big chance. One big leap to achieve what I really want in my life. 

Praying makes things better. And I have been talking to Him for some guidance. I’m pretty sure He has already heard my prayer. I’m entrusting everything to Him to make things work out, not in my time but in His time. I realized that if things go from light to dark, I must never lose hope. I must believe in His reasons and in His plans. Because He is all knowing and I must have faith in Him. 

Thank you for all my readers here. You have been with me all this time. And I hope this time that I need you all the most, I really wish you could stay by my side til the end. I don’t need luck. I need your prayers and positive thoughts. Thank you. It’s not too late to dream, so dream big.

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There are moments I want to stop forever. Like the moment the person I love dies from pain. I didn’t want to see it or believe it. I couldn’t do anything. It was a moment I felt completely helpless. - Do Min Joon

To tell you honestly, I was never a fan of Koreanovelas. Quite frankly, the only Koreanovela I have finished watching was Boys Over Flowers. But the past week changed my state of addiction to Korean Drama. I met another pair to add in my long list of OTPs — Cheon Song Yi and Do Min Joon. I am inviting each and everyone of my followers and readers here to try and give time to watch You Who Came From the Stars. 

I can’t put into words my exact emotions with this drama but I certainly promise you that romance, comedy, action and fantasy were all woven into one story. I shed so much tears last week while staying up late to finish this. And I’m planning to watch it again to take note of some quotable quotes and relieve the whole Korean Drama experience. I have never been so attached to a TV Series (not since Gossip Girl) that I tried to save gifs, pictures, watch videos over youtube and even blog about it. ♥

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Thirteen Reasons Why, Jay Asher
Rating: ★ ★ ★ ☆ ☆

So much feels for this book. I mean yes, life could get a bit crappy but why blame the fault on others? It’s really up to people to handle this kind of situations. But well, Hannah Baker wasn’t able to handle the stress and the shittiness of life. And I feel sorry for her. I feel like there should have someone who, she could use a friend. 

The Wit & Wisdom of Tyrion Lannister, George R.R. Martin
Rating: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

Since I’m a fan of Game of Thrones, and I have finished all seasons and I haven fallen in love with Tyrion Lannister, I tried reading the book. It’s actually just a short book since all of his famous lines and wisdom are compiled in this book. This book proves that men should use the mind to win a battle. To all girls who value the mind more than the physical appearance in a guy, this book is for you! And that’s only if you’re also a fan of Game of Thrones. Impin’ ain’t easy.

Anna and the French Kiss, Stephanie Perkins
Rating: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

It’s a cute book. It’s the type where you don’t expect the characters to fall in love and be together. I love Anna’s character. I feel like I’m her. And if I was in the situation, I would have done what she did. I also love her attitude and how she is with her friends. Must read!

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tanja-enchanted asked:

Hi ate Phem! Your letterings are soo cute! :)

Thank you so much!! :)

deebipolar asked:

Ate Phem, hello! Good Luck and do your best ate Phem. I believe in you too. I'll be praying for you, take care okay? God Bless you. Hihihi fighting!!

Dawn my love. Thank you for this encouragement! With you guys around here, I can’t help but be strong and believe na kakayanin ko! :) Love you Dawn! <3

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I have had this photo saved in my drafts for exactly 7 months now. And it’s just now that I gathered the strength and the chance to post it. I was too insecure, too doubtful and too scared to acknowledge the dream. So you may ask, why now? The answer is simple, I will be chasing this dream from now on. Yes, you had the right. I have this wildest dream of becoming a flight attendant. 

I was in my last year in college when I realized that I wanted to be one of those ladies to tell you to buckle up your seat belts during a flight. To tell you where the emergency exits are. Or to offer you coffee or tea from my little trolley of everything. I want to smile at you and tell that everything’s gonna be alright. I want you to know that you’ll be in time to come home to your families during holidays. I want to be that lady. I had my doubts. And I still do. I worry about my physical appearance, my skills - basically I’m doubting myself. What if I’m not good enough for them? And if I was, what if I won’t stand out among the others? Those were the reasons why I was too afraid to try. 

Don’t get me wrong, till now I still have my worries. But, what changed? My mom and sister changed. They believed in me. They pursued me. They told me to book that flight and try. They told me that there’s nothing wrong in failing. There’s nothing wrong as long as you tried. And it hit me, if my family believed in me, why can’t I believe in myself? It’s time to get out of that comfort zone. It’s time to chase the dream.

In the next two weeks, I will be on my way to Manila for an Open Day application. I’m not expecting anything. But I’m hoping. Hoping for the best. Hoping that the world will be in my favor. And I want everyone of you, you who have reached reading until this very line, to please pray for me. Pray for what I deserve. And until then, I will have to believe in myself and have faith. God is working His miracles.

Life Lessons Vol. 2
1. I can’t keep up with everything that’s happening around me. I can’t keep up with my fast-paced world. There are times that I feel like the world played a cruel joke on me. But guess what, it’s all in the head. The power is always in the mind. I won’t let it control me. 
2. Productivity is very important. With every passing day and with every hour I have to waste, I have to make sure I have made the most out of it. The questions linger: Was I able to help my family today? Did I do something that could improve my situation? Sometimes, I seem to answer “no” to these questions. But I have to move. I have to be productive for my own good and for other people too.
3. Money is basic need. I might not admit it at first, but money can do so many things. It can make me travel to places and buy things I wish I had. Make sure to value every cent and every peso. I learned that money is so easy to spend yet very hard to earn.
4. I learned the truth behind delaying gratification. It’s because things happen at the right time and with the right reasons. Hurrying is never a key to anything. There have been regrets on my part as to why I wasn’t able to wait. And I learned so much from that.
5. Praying keeps me sane. There are times when I feel alone and I remember that there is a God I could talk to. I tried surrendering my anxieties to Him and I must admit, a huge chunk of negativity gets drained away. Do this often.

Life Lessons Vol. 2

1. I can’t keep up with everything that’s happening around me. I can’t keep up with my fast-paced world. There are times that I feel like the world played a cruel joke on me. But guess what, it’s all in the head. The power is always in the mind. I won’t let it control me. 

2. Productivity is very important. With every passing day and with every hour I have to waste, I have to make sure I have made the most out of it. The questions linger: Was I able to help my family today? Did I do something that could improve my situation? Sometimes, I seem to answer “no” to these questions. But I have to move. I have to be productive for my own good and for other people too.

3. Money is basic need. I might not admit it at first, but money can do so many things. It can make me travel to places and buy things I wish I had. Make sure to value every cent and every peso. I learned that money is so easy to spend yet very hard to earn.

4. I learned the truth behind delaying gratification. It’s because things happen at the right time and with the right reasons. Hurrying is never a key to anything. There have been regrets on my part as to why I wasn’t able to wait. And I learned so much from that.

5. Praying keeps me sane. There are times when I feel alone and I remember that there is a God I could talk to. I tried surrendering my anxieties to Him and I must admit, a huge chunk of negativity gets drained away. Do this often.


Yesterday, I devoted my day to art. I woke up that morning and realized how I missed scribbling in my journal. Since I have been staying at home most of the time, my journal left me so many empty and free spaces for me to write on. I want to improve how I write. I want to improve my calligraphy. I wish I had many resources like those with Abbey and Dianne (my most idolized letterers). As of the moment, I’m only limited to my fineliner pens and UniPins. Bacolod bookstores doesn’t really have extravagant kind of pens (unlike in Manila where they have a wide variety of brush pens, calligraphy pens and etc) and books. 

I’m trying my best to improve my hobby. And basically how I take the photos. Hahaha. So if you have any suggestions, feel free to hit up my ask!

Guys please do follow my instagram account @officiallyphem and try visiting my tag there #fmtype.

You don’t understand what it’s like to be surrounded by all of the girls who can eat everything and do everything and they’re perfect.
Sadie Saxton, Awkward